WOOOOHOOOOO TRINIDAD & TOBAGO ARE IN THE WORLD CUP!!!! GO T&T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

im sooooooooooooooo happy, i think ima cry .....

Wow!!!! I can't believe it, second year of university is done, over with!!! Its really amazing how time flies by soooo quickly. It seems like only yesterday that I just started second year. I'm half way done !!! I really love it here, I hate that I'm going to have to leave here, I dont wanna go . I really wish I could stay here this summer, it would have been sooo much better than last summer because a lot of people are staying, and I actually know people who live here. I really must make a trip back up here, and visit friends and just chill. Its been one hell of a year, I made so many new friends, some people I will not see again, because their graduating, it just won't be the same without them . Others, I hope to bounce into them, like the guy who always eats, hehehehe,I FINALLY know his name!!! I really hope he doesn't go back to India. Its going to be sad next year, a lot of people are moving off campus, and I will hardly or never seem them, and with others we have no classes together . But thank goodness for MSN hehehe. I have to say that this has been the best year ever, despite a good amount of obstacles, and low times, the high times and the times spent with friends made everything worth it. I am so blessed to have great friends who always encouraged me to do my best and never give up!!!! They listened to all my troubles and were there for me when I needed them the most, and it meant a lot to me. I really made some good friends, like these two girls who are like sisters to me, we know each other inside out...... its got to the point where they can even understand my babbling when it comes to exam time, nothing i say makes any sense at all, hahahhaa. I won't ever forget all the times spent in the library, all the jokes shared in there, like "Its too good to be tree" hahahaha, the late nites, and X-large cups of coffee, the stalking of Preppy Boy, heheh DIDNT KNOW HE WAS FLIP!!!.....hahahaha after all the times seeing him, he probably thought that I liked him, instead of her, hehhehe, so glad I haven't seen him much this semester. OOOO yeah and who could forget the cute guy, 4th floor, group study side, with the sexi 12inch COMPAQ computer, oh yeah he was cute too . I'm soooo going to miss the library, it has officially become like another home to me, I really don't know what I'm going to do without it in the summer, I won't be surprised if I drive back here just to sit in the library hahahahaha. I've learned a lot of things besides information in the textbook, I learned a lot about life, and about who my real friends are, and about myself. I really think this year I got the chance to truly be myself. This semester I've done much better marks wise, and I actually ain't that dumb!! hehehehe . I am soooo going to miss the BROWN corner in the University Center. I always swore to myself that I would NEVER EVER sit in the brown corner......and what happens? I SIT THERE!!! hahaha. .......ahhhh soooo many good memories this year, this time its really going to be sad to say goodbye to this year. Sooo many memories, and not enough of time to write it.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WISHING U THE BEST ON U'RE B-DAY AND HAVE TONNES OF FUN!!!!!!

THE MAYONNAISE JAR AND THE COFFEE
>> >
>> >
>> >When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24
>hours in
>>a
>> >day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee.
>> >
>> >A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items
>>in
>front
>> >of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very
>>large
>and
>> >empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
>> >
>> >He then
asked the students if the jar was full. They all agreed
>that it
>> >was.
>> >
>> >The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them
>>into
>the
>>jar.
>> >
>> >He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas
>between
>> >the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was
>full.
>>They
>> >all agreed it was.
>> >
>> >The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the
>jar.
>> >
>> >Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more
>>if
>the
>> >jar was full.
>> >
>> >The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
>> >
>> >The professor then
produced two cups of coffee from under the
>>table
>and
>> >poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the
>empty
>> >space between the sand. The students laughed.
>> >
>> >"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, " I want you
>>to
>> >recognize that this jar represents your life.
>> >
>> >The golf balls are the important things-your God, family, your
>children,
>> >your health, your friends, and your favorite passions - things
>>that
>if
>> >everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would
>still be
>> >full.
>> >
>> >The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your
>house,
>>and
>> >your
car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff.
>> >
>> >"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is
>>no
>room
>> >for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you
>spend
>>all
>> >your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room
>for the
>> >things that are important to you.
>> >
>> >Pay attention to the things that are critical to your HAPPINESS.
>> >Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take
>your
>> >partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time
>>to clean
>> >the house and fix the disposal." Take care of the golf balls
>>first,
>the
>> >things that really matter. Set your priorities.
The rest is just
>sand."
>> >
>> >One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee
>> >represented.
>> >
>> >The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show
>>you
>that
>>no
>> >matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a
>>couple
>of
>> >cups of coffee with a friend."

Well lets see nothing much happened to me this weekend, Martina's bird Pudgie died on Friday, its so sad, I'm gonna miss him too, he was a cute bird.....i was gonna go wonderland with tickets for $25!!!!!...but....i had no one to g wit me :( it probably happened for the best seeing that on sat i got sick! I woke up 7am with sharp pains, i had bad cramps, and i went to the washroom thinking that i needed to throw up, but i didn't, instead i nearly fainted, i got really dizzy, lets just say that for the rest of the morning i was in the fetal position cryin from the pain!...i had to take tyenol 3 to get rid of the pain, it was bad......and the rest of the weekend i tried to work on my last ecology assignment....oh ya, and sat night the guy my friend tried hooking lets just say it was pretty interesting hearing from him.....let me fill u guys in....

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hmmm lets see.....on saturday my friend ******* called me to ask if i was going to ****'s party....i knew about it, but i was just too lazy to go....and so she convinced me to go and i got ready pretty fast...lol...cuz it was pretty last minute that i decided...very spontaneous. So i went by her apartment and chilled a bit, waiting for her bf to come....it was really cool, and i was very happy to catch up with her....hehehe and now there is a joke that will probably never ever leave me now, since she came up with it, and if u're reading this *******, "I do not change gloves that often".....loooool :P , well if i do change gloves often its cuz i havent found the rite pair to be wearing....lol. Anywayz her we met her bf in the park near the library and that was the first time i've seen the changes in the new library, its so pretty in the back, they went and put in a fountain and that day was really hot, so me and my friend we're both such nerds, lol...we convinced each other to go walkin in the fountains when it started to spray water and we got soaked....lol...well not too much soaked but good enough, and her bf came back and we tried to throw him in, but he's too strong to move....lol. So we get there, no one is really there, we're the first ones there, and he's got the cutest dog ever but it barks so much....the party turned more into a lime, it was cool, being able to chill with everyone....they played grand theft auto, damn that game is addicting, just to watch....we kept screaming at the person playing to shoot him! kill him1 steal his money! steal that car! run him over! beat him up!....lol...and it goes on, its a really violent game thats pointless but somehow interesting lol.....and oh me and my friend faced each other in a race car driving game, and oh my gosh! i suck big time....lol....i kept screaming at the tv for the car to move and i couldnt even turn my car around when it got stuck....lol...oh ya and thats girls dog kept peeing everywhere....lol...poor ****, he gotta clean up all that, but whats worse i think its what happened to his lawn....LMAO....let me ask u guys this? why in the world would u guys park a van of all type of cars on a lawn!....lol...that lawn is screwed up....lol....it was fun hanging wit everyone, and seeing them all again, im glad she called me to go.

i didnt do any homework :(

today i get back to guelph, and i remembered thats its my friend's b-day, i feel bad that i forgot cuz i could have visited her during the day, but her line was busy for like 2 hours! and i kept calling and recalling, for 2 hours just to get through with her, i told her that friday make sure she's free along with the other girls so that we could do smthg for her b-day. and i cant believe the next one, she went back to sri-lanka last week! hmmmmph, ima get her good when i see her in a month, her and her sister

back at guelph i drank a bit of whiskey with ken tonite, tried it straight and with pepsi.....i say if i were ever to drink it again, give me the whiskey STRIAGHT!....lol....apparently according to ken it looks like im a hard drinker....lol.

One fat guy - goes to a popular GYM is in Bangalore
>>sees an ad for a new gym guaranteeing to reduce
>> anyone's weight by 5, 10 or 20 kilograms on
>>the first day. So
>>he goes and tells them he wants to lose 5 kg. They
>> lead him into a huge gym with all kinds of
>>ropes and parallel
>>bars and ladders and tell him to wait a minute.
>>
>> He's standing there when on the far side of
>>the gym a door
>>opens and out steps a beautiful girl, with a sign
>>saying
>>
>> "If you catch me, I'm yours."
>>
>> He starts running, and just as he gets close,
>>she starts
>>picking up speed.
>>
>> Before he knows it, he's running a! ll over
>>the gym, up the
>>ladders, down the ladders, across the parallel bars,
>>here
>> and there. And just as he's about to catch the
>>blonde, pop, she
>>disappears through a door. In comes the
>> management who lead him to the showers, and
>>then weigh him.
>>Sure enough, he lost exactly 5 kg.
>>
>> He's back on the street and starts to think.
>>
>> "Jesus, I was so close to catching her. If I
>>had a little more
>>time..."
>>
>> So he races back to the gym and says, "I want
>>to lose 20 more
>>kg."
>>
>> "No problem," says the manager.
>>
>> Again he is led to the large gym. This time
>>he's standing by
>>the door when it opens. Out comes a Gorilla with a
>>sign.
>>
>> "If I catch you, you're mine."

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>>Why Gujarathies are ultimate in Business
>>========================================
>>There was once a Gujarati called Navneet Bhai Patel,
>>owning a shop,
>>living in USA, and he was involved in a car accident.
>> >
>> > At the hospital, when he awoke, he called for the
>>nurse to find out what
>> > had happened to him.
>> >
>> > I'm very sorry, sir, but you were involved in a very
>>bad car crash.
>> > "Car crash! My Corolla!! Is my car all right?" he
>>asked hysterically.
>> >
>> > "Sir, your car was destroyed, but that is the least
>>of your worries
>> > - you lost your left arm in the crash, and we were
>>unable to save it,"
>>she> said apologetically.
>> > "I lost my arm? My Swiss Watch! My Swiss Watch!!"
>> >
>> > "Sir, please calm down. That is the least of your
>>worries. You are in a
>> > very critical condition, but all your family is here
>>to see you."
>> >
>> > He asked for his family to be called in. As they
>>gathered around the bed,
>> > he called for each of them by name.
>> >
>> > "Alpa, are you here?"
>> > "I am here dear, and I will never leave you", said
>>Mrs. Patel.
>> >
>> > "Diness, are you here?"
>> > "I am here father, and I will never leave you."
>> >
>> > "Kalpess, are you here?"
>> > "I am here father, and I will never leave you."
>> >
>> > "Kamless, my son, are you here?"
>> > "I am here father, and I will never leave you."
>> >
>> > "Paress, my child, are you here too?"
>> > "I am here father, and I will never leave you."
>> >
>> > "Well"
>> > said Navneet Bhai thoughtfully, "Alpa, Diness,
>>Kalpess, Paress and
>>Kamless are here....... and if all of you are
>>here,......
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> > .
>> >
>> > THEN WHO THE HELL IS IN THE SHOP!!!!!????" he cried loudly.

Hey boo, hows it going? Miss yuh :P, tonnes of luv, and u're gonna be wonderin how i did dis, i aint tellin :P

well i went to the library to do some work....and bounced into one of my roomies there and the other came to join us, ya so i was gonna study for my midterm on tuesday; but i dont understand one single thing...arggggghhhhhhhh, i mite end up droppin dat course by tom, i know its money gone, but wha can u do? no matter wha i'll still have to pay back all dat money anyways.....and i tried to work on my ecology assignment....arggggh that assignment is the worse on ever that i have to do.....usually i can sit down and after 3 hours of thinking i can start jotting down points and stuff and usually know where i'm going in writin,but not wit this assignment....i'm confuzzled....argggh and i need to do well on dis on cuz i forgot to make a posting for a debate, which means no marks for becky.....and i wasn't feelin too well so i couldnt concentrate....oh ya back to the main topic...so at the library rite.....well one of our roomies went to go give back the labtop and there is no one on the 4th floor, its completely empty, so CHINA MAN starts playin his music outloud rite....and u know me i encourage him to dance...lol (aren't i such a nice roomie :P ) ...hahaha, ya so he danced, he danced broadway style, oops my bad broadway freestyle....and he jumped untop the table and started dancing! lol...hahahaha, and he tried break dancing untop the table too...lol..muahhahahaa, bwahhhhhahahahahahaha.....hey martina u missed out man....u gotta come wit us one time to the library, we'll all go on a day when the library is gonna be empty at nite, and get him to start dancing again....lol...u know what he was dancing to? santa claus is coming to town! bawhahahahhahhahahaha can u picture that martina? CHINA MAN dancing!...lol...and i thought that only me and michelle used to do that in the library on the other end of the 4th floor....lol

oh ya heres the song we came up before....the music background is to the song "santa claus is comin to town"

"china man is coming to town,
you better watch out,
u better run and hideeeeee
cuz china man is comin to town
he'll beat you wit his chopsticks
and eat up all your rice....."

lol...thats all we got so far...bawhahahhahahahaa

oh ya, hey martina, i'm really glad that u're living with us next year :D

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i cant belive her! omg my friend is soooo crazy! ahhhhhhhhh.....i cant believe it, she is having me come home to 'suaga to for a surprise? ahhhhhh.....i'ma get dis girl good tom when i c her for doin dis to me....ahhh man now i gotta tell me folks to pick me up for tom.....i cant believe this girl....ima have to walk all over the international center to look for her....gonna be fun :P



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well uhh ima keep this short....there;s nuttin new and exciting wit me, except that i passed my chemistry midterm...booyah :D and i went to chapters and bought two art books :D...... i spent wha 30 minutes in chapters....lol...i was taking too long that ken left me to go eat...lol....ummm i joined the gym with my lab partner aka classmate aka friend....its fun there ...lol :P my friend is leavin me forever to BC and i cant say bye in person to him :( but there's still msn :) ....omg the other day i was comin home from class wit tommy and ken, and one word of advice never go out wit these boys together in public!...they dont know their limit in when to stop , it got to the point on the bus where a guy started to listen in on our convo and laugh, and it was funny though,....but still....uhhhh i'm just bored so i decided to write in here...besides i cant concentrate on my assignment....arggggghhhh.....oh ya and ravi said he couldnt come visit me :( oh well.....uh thats it for now

hehehehheehe, oh my gosh! i can't believe this is happenin to me! hehehe, oh my, now what they tell me is really come true, i cant believe it....me rebecca of all ppl? damyn....i can't believe it, i am in sooooooooooo much shock......its like woah, unbelievable...like i cant stop laughin or smilin and thats how much shock i am in.....all i knw is that i better figure out what to do by this weekend, what i want, cuz if i don;t , DAYYYYMNNNN, that wouldnt be good for me or the others, this is sooooo crazy!!!! me? me? oh my gosh......ahhhhhhhhhhhh i cant believe it. daymn man this weekend is gonna be sooooooo interesting, not even funny, i cant believe it, like y me? hehehehehe, daymn....awww man what have i gotten myself into? oh my, oh my, this weekend is gonna be REAL INTERESTING....i might let u guys know how it goes, maybe or maybe not, we'll see.....hehehehe

hehehehehehhehehhehehehehhehe, dont mind me, im just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy....hehehehhehehehheeh :D

i think dat ive been floatin on cloud ten since monday..hehehe, but especially since today...hehehehehehhehehehheh :D :D, ahhh man dis weekend is gonna be interestin! muahahahahaha...maybe i've said toooo much already....muahahahhahahhahah


later

hheheheheheheh :D :D soooooo HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Fuckin jackass!!!!!!!! ahhh that feels bettah, i cant believe him, ok we can't date i'm over that now, and u u're self said that u wanna be my friend, and i'm trying to be u'res, its nice to be friends right? but that fuckin bastard won't talk to me! if he doesnt wanna fuckin talk to me as a friend, then dont come online to msn delete me for fuck sakes! geesh! i knw i was a bit harsh on him yesterday and i didn;t want any hard feelings b/w us if we are going to be friends right? so he comes online tonight, i message him, hes wha it says:

R-E-B-E-C-C-A says:
hey i aint mad anymore
R-E-B-E-C-C-A says:
i mean it this time
Italian Job says:
Rebecca leave me alone
Italian Job says:
please
Italian Job says:
we cant talk
R-E-B-E-C-C-A says:
all i wanted to say was sorry bout bitchin at u yesterday
Italian Job says:
OK thanks
R-E-B-E-C-C-A says:
and y cant we talk? aren;t we friends?
Italian Job says:
yeah 4 sure
Italian Job says:
gotta go now
Italian Job says:

R-E-B-E-C-C-A says:
so wait
R-E-B-E-C-C-A says:
cant u talk to u're friend/
R-E-B-E-C-C-A says:
?


and that fuckin bastard goes offline! wha the fuck is that?
i can't talk to u? what the fuck is that? this is the same guy mind u who said to me, rebecca if u ever need anything u can always count on me, mind u thats after he broke it off wit me.

he won't even tell me y he aint good enough for me, now he has me pondering y he can't talk to me? i for sure hell know that i didn't do anything, what the fuck is his problem? treat a guy nice and this is wha u get back in return, shit. geesh! i'm like tryin to be u're friend, and i hate apologzing especially for smthg like that, when he did it, and i got mad, but i didn't want any hard feelings b/w us, i hate stuff like that with most people, and omg but he tells me he cant talk to me, actin as if someone has gotten him in prison or smthg! geesh! idiot!

this is such a sudden change from a guy who says i miss u sooooooooo miss, to i can't talk to u, bye....like wha the hell? a full 360 degree turn like three times!

*sigh*, hmmm makes me wonder wha the hell is going on wit him, inside that stupid empty brain of his, i shuldn't have to be thinking y someone can't talk to me and won't explain y, i shuld be told it, i have ever right to know, its so much easier to handle smthg when u know the reason y, its harder to handle it when u don't even knw y its happening

hmmmm, this boy doesn't have the guts to tell ppl things, mind yuh its the same guy who believes soooo much in honesty, oh well whatever, all i do know is that he's not a man at all, not a boy, but a child, even my 3 year old cousin has more guts dan him and can tell ppl wha he thinks straight out.

ima just take my friends advice "wasn't good enough for u, maybe he was gay", or my next friend "he's probably really bad, realized that u're too nice for him and doesnt want to hurt u"...i've got such GREAT friends,and when i say that i mean it soooooo much, got the greatest friends around, soooo caring... but somehow always get the idiots to like me....lol...oh well whatever wha can u do? just gott learn how to pick them better...lol...hmmm how bout a lie detector test next time? lol

well whatever it is, i wont knw, and i dont think i will ever knw, cuz it doesnt look like he's willing to tell

sorry to all my friends for muh cussin, cuz i knw that u guys knw me so well and knw that i rarely cuss and rarely get mad.

ahhh i'll be fine, whatever, not worth my time to angry over, whatever, i feel bettah though after this writing in LJ, don't knw wha it is, but it makes u feel a bit better writin in here....lol....and to think i wrote just today that u guys wouldn't get another personal entry from me....lol...okay i swear this is the last one for a very long time, i knw "boo" that will disappoint yuh soooo much cuz u like the drama and u find this entertaining....lol...i knw u were shocked by my first 2 words in this post, sorry "boo"....lol...and get to read my business...lol...but i still luv ya "boo", no worries, u read mine i'll read u'res...lol

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Hmmmm, wha can i say? dat guys r stupid idiots, who r only confused and wouldnt know wha they wanted if it hit dem smack dab in da face and said dis is wha u want...lol...well maybe i'm overexaggeratin, not all guys r like dat; my guy friends aren't like dat. no offense to muh guy friends who r readin dis, u guys aren't idiots, but r the sweetest things around. hmmm i think guy friends r da best, any guy dat is closer dan a guy friend smthg always goes wrong, or at least it always goes wrong wit me....lol. hmmmm lets see, well i meet dis guy online, sweetest thing ever, couldn't stop talkin to him, we talked for hours and felt wha we both said was a connection, which was odd, cuz both of us enjoyed talkin to each other so much. he was cool, had a job, car, sister even went here at guelph, so he knew his way here, and the first guy i met dat believed so much in honesty, and being honest with each other. he came over to guelph, we chilled, walked in the arboretuem, we both realized dat we clicked as much as we did offline as we did online, he came back to my room and we watched the movie "are we there yet". coming towards the end of the movie we made out, it was my first time ever kissing a guy, it was okay, well i have nothing to compare it too, so i wouldnt quite know how its supposed to be done....lol....in the process of kissing his hand went up my shirt and he groped me, well at least one of my breast..hahahaha. i have always had soooooo much trouble finding the right guy, or at least the right guy to say okay u're worth my time to date. i finally find a guy dat i clicked wit, and each day we talked he would be like i miss u sooooooooo much, i can't wait to see u again, u're so sweet, u're so cute, u're hot, i luv talkin to u, all the nicest things. well things moved quick b/s us, we only knew each other since thursday, and when we meet on monday, made out, he said we were more dan friends before he left, and i asked him wha he meant by dat, and he's like do u wanna be my gf? and i'm so smitten by him i say yes, and he's like bye sweetie. and i even asked him on da phone is things were movin too quick b/w us and he said no, he asked me da same thing and i said no too. he said dat he would try to come up thrusday to see me but he ended up not being able to, i used to text and call him so much and be like i miss u sweetie, used to call him before i go to sleep to say goodnite, sweet dreams, cuz we both agreed dat we had to say dat to each other before we went to bed, we wanted to hear each other's voice before we went to sleep. i even woke up at 5:15am!, to call dis boy and leave him a message to say have a good day at work sweetie, miss ya, i called cuz i knew dat he would be awake by den. and later dat nite when i talked to him, i asked him if he got my message and he's like ya, and was like y did u call so early for? and i was like well i called cuz i thought dat it would be nice to talk to u in da morning before u go to work and wish u a nice day. he told me dat he would try to come on saturday cuz he ended work at 3pm, then when i talked to him on saturday he said he didnt knw, to call him back on his break at 4pm. he also told me how he was trying to come see me today, and how he missed me so much. so i call him back, talked to him, everything seemed fine, he was talkin about our b-days, except he got my b-day confused, he said dat i told him july 13th, and how it was cool dat we were only 3 days apart b-day wise, so dat we can celebrate it together, and i was like ummm no my b-day isn't july 13th, and he's like yes it is u told me so, i'm like no i didn't i think i of all ppl shuld know when my b-day is and i wouldn't go lie to someone about the date of my b-day, and he's like okay, then we can celebrate twice (once for his b-day, and next when mine actually came up), i was like u must have been talkin to someone else, and he's like no he wasn't (yah right, most likely was --- rolling eyes right now). he also told me that he will try to come up dat he had to see what was going on home at first but he will let me know, cuz he might go hang out wit his cousin and then call me later on in the night, or he will come up and see me. he told me dat he'll call me at 6pm and we'll talk on his way home from work, so i call him at 6, doesn't return my call, so i'm like probably forgot or is driving, so i call back around 7, cuz by den i knew dat he wasnt coming for sure and left a message, never heard anything from him, until he came on msn at around 7 smthg i think. mind yuh dis is da same guy who said that if he meet me and didn't like me he would tell me right der and den when we met dat we shuld only be friends and he didn't not until saturday.

Italian Job hey Rebecca
-------becky-------- ya
-------becky-------- wha?
Italian Job i have to tell you some thing
-------becky------- sure
-------becky-------- wha?
Italian Job we cant date iam really sorry you are a very nice person i only wanna be freinds with you
-------becky-------- ok
Italian Job hope you understand
-------becky-------- ok
-------becky--------so is that the only reason y? or is there another reason?
Italian Job iam not good enough for u there is no other person so dont take me wrong
-------becky-------- wha?, ok wha u mean not good enough? and i ain't mad at u
Italian Job i know that you are a very nice person .and i have lots of feeling for you but i just wanna be your friend nothing else
-------becky--------ok sure i understand and respect u're feelings, but u r one confusing guy, u say that u have lots of feelings for me, yet only wanna be friends, its okay, i respect that, glad u told me sooner than later
Italian Job yeah i know thanks for your understanding
------becky-------- hey u still never answered me as to y u said that u're not good enough for me
Italian Job cant explain BUT you will be always there for you if you need me
------becky------ Italian Job ok, but if u're thinking it, u must know how to explain it
Italian Job may be i will tell you later some day
Italian Job i feel myself lost right now
------becky------ ok
Italian Job I have to go now
------becky------ hey
------becky------ just one more thing
Italian Job ok
------becky------ i ain't mad at u, just a bit hurt thats all, now i realize y i keep guys far away from me, take care, talk to u later sometime...bye
Italian Job bye

ya so there is it u guys....hahahahaha and right after he got off, i called him, well of course u knw he wouldnt answer his phone (mind u dis is the same guy dat said anytime i call he would always return my call as soon as he could, all i have to do is leave a message for him, and apparently, dont know how true dis is, he saved my messages cuz he liked hearin my voice, oh ya and i only got 1 text message from him, yet he said that he sent more, and smthg must have gone wrong, cuz i never got them), so i left a message and said, next time u plan on doin dat to someone, tell them to their face or over da phone and not the coward way out over on msn, and i also said u culd at least give an explanation, u gave a reason, but at least be able to explain u're self......i went later dat night on hi5 chat room, and guess who started talking to me and didn;t know it was me.....sameer!!!!!! as soon as he gave me his email address to add him to msn, i was like its u! i started laughing, kept typin hahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha, well wha more can i do? right? he asked me wha i was doin up so late? i go nothing, not like u care anyways...he was like of course i do, we're friends, i wrote ahahahahahahaha....i asked him to explain to me y, and he goes I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR U! BELIEVE ME, and i asked him to explain me why he thought like dat, and he said he couldn't and that i will understand, or see, smthg like dat, i was like how can i see/understand? if u won't tell me? for all muh friends dat knw me, u knw dat i'm a pretty nice girl, don't get mad, treat others wit respect and all dat jazz right? well ha, not dat night, i harrassed him in dat chat room, that he kept closin our chat box, and didn't even respond....i wish i culd have save dat convo to show yuh...here's a little smthg dat i said, i told him dat i deserved the right to knw y he wasn't good enough for me, i asked him is it cuz u're gay? is it cuz u're bi? is it cuz u only want sex? is it cuz u're a player?, i said other stuff but it wasnt like dat which i wrote in here, it was more like tell me, tell me, y, cuz all i really wanted to know was y, thats all, and so i finally wrote, ima leave u alone now to pick up more girls online, i hope dat they r hot enough for u,and dat u're good enough for her. ya and then i called him, and was like y can't u give me a reason as to y u ain't good enough for me? is it so hard to do? and i was like i knw u're awake right now, cuz u're in hi5 chattin and u're ignoring me. see, i will admit it, i don't take any shit, especially from guys, dats just the way i am, cuz i have seen guys do sooooo much terrible and hurtful stuff to girls and i don't want that to happen to me, that if a guy messes wit me so, i will cut him up, chew him up and spit him back out without any second thoughts, until i feel content, i know to some ppl that may sound mean, but when u have seen things that i have seen u wouldn't think it was so mean to be thinking that. and last night after tellin him well sorta off in that chat room, well at least annoyin the hell out of him so dat he probably couldn't concentrate on picking up more girls cuz my message screen most likely kept poppin up, i feel better, and i ain't mad no more, i'm passed being mad, cuz its not worth getting mad anymore over someone who wont even have the decency to explain themselves to u. i won't say dat i will be necessarily a bitch towards them, just more like a biotch....lol...well he deserved it all that stuff i said in the chat room, i dont think any gurl wuld blame me for wha i did.

oh well wha can i do? nothin, i ain't mad no more...can't be mad anymore, nothin to be mad at anymore.....i just have so much bad luck with guys, its so hard for me to find the right guy, any guy dat has liked me i have always shut dem down, then along came rayon, liked him sooooo much, talked to him for 4 months, but distance, kept us apart, and impatience, and confusion on his part "i dunno" ...lol...and with sameer, i dunno even know what happened, it took a 360 degree turn instantly, "i'm not good enough for u"....with rayon, took too long, with sameer happend too quick...lol, such on opposite side of the spectrum isn't it? lol both sweeties, such sweeties, and ended up not working, hey i knw next time i ain't going for a sweet guy, ima go for a bad guy....lol...now i knw why most girls always go for bad guys...lol...nah i don't think i will go for bad guy, one day i will find my sweetie and if i don't oh well i got my 2 babies (birds dat is), but when i do find the right guy i knw he won't say "u're not good enough for me", he won't say "i'm not good enough for u", but he will say "we're just perfect for each other"...sappy eh? lol

hey ya, looks like i'm back in DWO with u...lol...only after wha a week? lol, i guess i missed the club tooooo much, besides i didn't want u to have all the fun now...lol...u know DWO is such a great club, i couldn't just leave it, and leave u in it by u're self now could i? dat wouldn't be right...lol

i think i have the sweetest friends in the whole wide world, they are all being there for me, its sooooo cute and soooo sweet, especially since i usually don't get dat, but its nice to knw that u have friends behind u all the way; i especially like what one guy told me and i quote "not an impressive excuse, he must be lying....now can i eat u?....lol", another one said "he must be gay"...all i knw is that when i talk to my friend, if he comes online cuz he is still mad wit me, i will tell them, i'm never takin u're advice again...lol..cuz he was the one who suggested for me to go for sameer....lol...well in his words "that bloke"...lol, i like dat term now....lol..i dunno y, but i do. i remember him saying, "go ahead for dat bloke, if he's a nice guy and all, look he's already off to a better start than i am, cuz he's nearby"

oh well whatever, dat's all i can say, i do knw for sure dat my 2 friends, r really more in shock dan i am...lol...such sweeties...awww...miss dem, i can't wait to tell one of my guy friends bout wha happened, just can't wait to hear wha he'll say...cuz he did after all tell me to be careful cuz guys wuld hurt u in a split second.

my friend, such a sweetie, sent me the longest, yet so true article to cheer me up (so thoughtful to look it up), here's wha it said:

Ode to the nice guys? I don’t think so!
A self-proclaimed nice girl lets off some steam

If this world is so chock-full of nice guys looking for nice girls, then why haven’t I met one yet? I’ve looked and looked and I just can’t seem to find these guys anywhere.

You see, I am one of those rare girls the author of the Ode talks about—one who actually appreciates the nice guy right in front of me. The problem is that nice guys don't actually appear that often. And while the author of the Ode makes some good points, I can’t help but wonder if he places himself under the category of nice guy? ‘Cause all it sounds like to me is that he’s complaining because as a “nice guy”, he’s missing out on getting some ass.

Well, this is my ode to the nice girl; the one with glasses or freckles or baby fat (the one who’s “a little too chubby” for your tastes). The one with whom you seem to have more in common than any of the skinny, pretty wenches who won’t give you the time of day. This is for the nice girl who’s been your friend since high school—the one who let you copy her answers in chemistry lab.

This is for the nice girl who goes to the mall with you to help you pick out new duds once you’ve finally landed the date of your life with that beautiful-yet-dumb-as-a-post girl of your dreams. This is for the nice girl who spent two hours rebuilding your ego after your disastrous night out with Miss Pretty—you do remember that night, don’t you? It was the same crappy night she stuck you with the bill, and, post-dinner, promptly took off with some jerk driving a Benz.

This is for the nice girl who invited you to the lame-ass party because she figured it would be better for you than spending another Saturday night at home alone, playing GTA: San Andreas for five hours straight. Yes, the beers were warm, but since the two of you were both dateless she thought you both could go to a party, mingle—and maybe even enjoy each other’s company. She’s a silly girl for even trying to perk up your pathetic existence. This is for the nice girl who listened to you lament that you spent your entire night with a girl you wouldn’t even consider hitting on, because she’s your friend, and well, hitting on your friend would be gross.

How would you know, lame-o? Have you even tried?

Since you went with out with the sole intention of getting some ass (and failed miserably) perhaps it would be prudent of the nice girl to re-examine her friendship with you. It would seem that the predominant theme of all of your belly-aching is your lack of action. After all of your whining and mewling it would seem you’re just like every other guy—except, you’re not even getting laid for your ordinary-ness.

Loser.

This is my ode to the nice girl—the one who showed you all of the right clothes, shoes, moves and cologne you needed to impress that sexy co-ed or the Beyoncé look-alike in the next cubicle. This is for the nice girl who comforted you and assured you that the other guy you saw her with was just her brother. This is for the nice girls who are sick and tired of hearing that they’re “too smart”, “too tall”, or “too level-headed” to date.

Please.

This is for the nice girl who’s tired of being too nice to date. I’m with you, sister! If there is one (just one) nice guy out there who’s reading, where are you? Where are you hiding? Why don’t we go and grab a coffee sometime?

They say that birds of a feather flock together, so why aren’t we flocking, already?

well thats all folks....lol...u probably won't see another long journal entry or personal one like so for a long time...lol....ps. no need to feel sorry for me, i'm a big gurl, i'm gonna be fine :D

Current Mood: blank

okay, i usually don't write in here, but i promised my roomie, that i would. so i'm holding up my end, u better too jen :P . well i officially finished first year university :D, hehehe, so happy, glad thats over with, i just hope that i did decent (crossing fingers); i don't even mind that i have to go summer school, it'll be fun living with friends and having ken teach me chinese. ok, well i finished my last exam this past saturday, after having like all my exams one day after the next...ahhhhhh, oh well, its done and over with :D

after leaving watson for the last time on saturday, i took my parents out to dinner and i paid too with my meal card....lol...it was nice though i even brought back something for my brother, and left the waiter a very good tip, and guess what u guys? i still had $14 left on my meal card?!?!? lol....so me and my parents drove back to campus...so i offically left campus, 5:45 pm....lol...and i went to the Pit and bought some more stuff and just when i thought it was completely done, all the money, guess what? because we get discounts with our meal cards, i still had money left, so i had to walk back into the store and buy a couple of more things, sigh, and then it wouldn't accept my card, cuz i was over what i had left, but luckily the lady knew that i was trying to max out my card and i paid the extra dollar in cash...sigh...so glad that next year, there is no meal plan. oh ya when i went into the Pit, i was wearing my Trini shirt, and some girl yelled out to me, woah Trini shirt, i'm thinking in my mind, like what the hell....so i turned around and this girl starts talking to me, apparently she's Trini too.....its like woah, cuz as soon as i am leaving, it is the first time that i actually met a Trini on campus....lol...ok for those who may not know the little story with my meal plan, well here's what happened, i had $200 left on my meal card to spend in two days! so i was struggling and trying to find ways to get rid of my money, because there was no way that i could get a refund or even transfer my money over to the next semester, because i had two minimum plans, so there was no way that i could. well to try and get rid of the money, i even asked to friends from back home, if they would like to come visit me for free food, all they can eat, $200 worth of food...lol...but sadly they couldn't because it was short notice, and they were busy, so there went plan A. but i was clever, hahaha, i thought of some other ways to spend my money:
1. buy things from the Pit that would be usually for summer school (that worked a little bit, but the stuff that they had there, sucked big time, its was like i wouldn't want that; but i did find something nice, pad thai -(i think thats how its spelt))
2. be nice and buy a couple of slices of cake for my family and friends back home----> i bought 14 slices of cake all together!!!!!, and i still had money left over
3. take my parents out to dinner for the first time and probably last time for a very, very long time

i came home and tried to hid from my nosey neighbours, who only kept watching us.....can't stand them

i relaxed, then called a couple of friends to see if i would be able to drop off some cake for them

i went to my friend house, the one who came to visit me, and she was all dressed up in her indian dress, and she tried to get to me to stay, but i didn't want to cuz, it was all people from her church and i didn't know them, and i had to go to my other friend's house.

for my other friend, i brought cake for her whole family and i wanted to leave cuz they too had company over, but oh no, her mom made me stay as usual...lol...any time i go there, i can never leave. and apparently my other friend was over there too, and i surprised her and as usual i annoyed her....lol. i only went to her house expecting to stay for 5 minutes, and i didn't leave until 2 and 1/2 hours later!, lol, but i'm so used to that by now. and every time that i go there, her mom makes me eat, even though i tried to explain to her that i just came from a big dinner with my parents and i wasn't hungry, but she insisted and so 10pm at night i was eating, and she even gave me treats to take home and a banana too.....lol. i had soooooo much fun over at her house, it was just like old times, and i really feel at home there, she and her mom and sister, are honestly like another family to me.....its not often and it is rare that you will be able to go into someone's house and joke with their mom and even with their mom bother you're friends. and omg, ask me why, it was sweet but her mom kept introducing me to all her guests there, it was funny was what i thought, cuz of the way she would introduce me....her mom is such a sweetie....anytime i go there my mom knows that i eat there, even though i ate before i left home...lol....and omg, i never realized how long it has been since i have had spicy food because i had it by her house, and oh gosh, my eyes started watering....lol...i can usually handle spicy foods but after being in guelph, for a year, the type of food served in guelph is not spicy at all, even if they claim it is, but i wasn't as bad or even as funny as the other guest that the mother and father had over, he has no hair on his head, and he started sweating from eating the spicy food, and had to ask for a napkin to wipe his head!....lmao. but i don't think that anything can beat the little kid that i scared at her house...lol, that was jokes, i'm still laughing cuz i have a feeling that the kid was looking out for me the next day....lol...poor kid....lol. just so you guys don't think that i'm cruel to kids, i'll tell u guys the joke....well the kid is now going to be starting school for the first time, so my friend's mom made a joke to the kid and told him that i was his teacher and the kid looked over at me and i was like "i'll see you in school tomorrow"...lol...and the kid ducked under the table!....lmao still, and of course, before i left i told the kid that " i will see you tomorrow in class, and u better be sitting in the front row of class".....lol. i really had fun that night, it was only pure jokes, it was good, and omg, her sister i love her she is such jokes, i tried to take a picture with her, but i had to trick her into taking one, me and her sister had to hold her still to try and take a picture...lol....it was lots of fun, i didn't want to leave, but she still had an exam, and had to study. and when i got home she called me, and i was thinking y is she calling me for? i didn't leave anything there, but she called to see if i got home safe....awwww....i completely forgot all about that, it has been such a long time since anyone has done that for me, and i forgot how nice it was to have someone call to see if u got home safe. i had sooooo much fun though, if i was to write all about everything that happened, it would be tooo long....lol

well today i did nothing and it felt soooooooo good!!!! i also went to drop off yet another slice of cake to my friend, who i promised since easter time to give him cake because he was so nice to help me out with a little problem, but i thought that i wasn't going to see him at all, cuz he couldn't go bowling with us, so i never brought it, sorry again, but this time he got his cake, i didn't forget and i even drove to his house to give it to him

then later tonight i drove to my other friend's house, who i have not literally seen in a whole year, so it was nice, even though we only talked for 20 minutes, but it was still good

damn, i wrote a lot....lol...i'm almost becoming like my other friend who like writes novels in this LJ....well this is all that i am going to write until next time.

(hey jen, when u write in LJ, don't forget to write bout how it was the first night that i left.....i bet u threw a slumber party in our room once i was gone....lol...or i think u might have invited u know who over ;) ....bye the way, tell him that i said hi, and to not miss up my side of the room, that i cleaned before i left :P )

Lol......it was so cute....tonight as jen was sleeping she started to talk in her sleep, not in english though, she mumbled some words in viet, i think it was a whole sentence...i couldn't stop laughin, it was so cute, i have never heard her do that before. I ran to get dannio and martina who were still awake, cuz i just had to tell them, i knew that they would want to hear, when we came bac into the room jen was awake and i told her wha happened and this is so cute, her response was "so wha did i say"...lol...its funny b/c i don't know wha she said cuz it was in viet....awww man, livin wit jen's the best....lol